Dawn of 2010

It's December 2009.
Am i satisfied with this life of mine? No, i'm not satisfied. Not yet...or will i?
I'm still searching with the meaning of this life. What is it for? What am i living for? What am i here for?
At this moment, nothing could give me the answer. Nothing...and so i'm feeling empty. Uber empty.
Am i doing the right thing? Am i at the right place?
These are the unanswered question since....what?...ages ago.... and im here at the dawn of my near-to-30 era.
2010...what's up with 2010?... hopefully the grass are greener on the next journey.

Tujuh Ayat Cinta

Tujuh Ayat Cinta


Sabda Rasulullah SAW:

Barangsiapa yang hafal dan
mengamalkan tujuh kalimah ini akan
dimuliakan oleh Allah dan malaikat dan
akan diampuni dosa-dosanya walau
sebanyak buih di lautan..

1. bismillahhirrahmannirrahim:pada
tiap-tiap hendak melakukan sesuatu.

2. alhamdulliah:pada tiap-tiap
habis melakukan sesuatu.

3. astagfirrullah:jika tersilap
mengatakan sesuatu yang buruk.

4. insyaallah:jika ingin melakukan
sesuatu pada masa akan datang.

5. lahaulawalaquataillahbillah:bila
tidak dapat melakukan sesuatu yang
agak berat atau melihat sesuatu yang
buruk.

6. innalillah:jika menghadapi
musibah atau melihat kematian.

7. laailaahaillallah:bacalah
sepanjang siang dan malam sebanyak-
banyaknya.amalkanlah selalu moga-moga
kita tergolong dikalangan orang yang
terpilih oleh Allah.

A Words by Galla

furikaereba itsudatte
kawaranu [kimi] no egao ga atta
arukitsukare tachidomaru hi mo
chiisa na yorokobi no hi mo

kono ryoute ni kakaekirenai
ai wo oshiete kureta


Ah atatakaku sotto yasashiku
yomigaeru kaze wa
mada ano hi no mama no mabushisa de
fukinukete yuku yo

uragiru koto no tsumibukasa wo
shinjiaeru koto no tsuyosa wo
kazoekirenu hiru to yoru wo
mune ni shimatteyukou...

wakare to deai no michi wo
[kizu]tsukinagara [boku]ra wa aruiteyuku n' da ne

Ah atatakaku sotto yasashiku
yomigaeru kaze wa
ima hitori sora wo mitsumeteru
[boku] ni hohoendeiru
mada ano hi no mama no mabushisa de
te wo futteiru
[kimi] wa everlasting memory

i wish i could go back to those times

where pain can be healed

by just a candy or lollipop...

New Task...

I started a new day today... a new begining (hopefully it is a new begining...).
i can't sleep, n can't even think of anything...
i dunno...sumhow last nite it gives me the kinda of mix feelings....worried, panicky, sad, unsure.... i dunno... it's dat kinda feeling i have wen sumthing bad is happening... but i dun think it got to do with the new task that im hving now..................hmmm.... i dunno.....juz dun want to be so -ve anymore....

anyway bout this new task of mine..... actually i am quite unsure os wat im doin....the typical me?.... maybe...
questions loading up my mind...
will i be good?
am i able to do this?
is this wat i really want?
is this me?
and at the same time... i miss the work that i currently do... 1st day on my new task, i already miss that office.... i think its more me than anything else.... well i dunno..
i texted RoYu, who was sent to Seria, i think he misses the office also....bnr th bhantu office atu :P...... miss it a lot..........

so the questions that load up my mind....it keeps asking me n i dun hav the answr... i'll just wait and see...

I'm Not Alone...

Today... I asked Atep again to accompany me masuk lif.............i'm a scaredy cat!!!
First, when i want to buy a Top-Up card, and then a few minutes later, when i wanna go home..... awal pagi berani ku masuk... sdh ptg atu i'm chnaging into a scaredy cat! Astaga.... =p
Sorry Atep... menyusahkan Atep saja eh.... =(

Walking in The Rain

Today, when i went to work (at 1pm...yup, im late!) i texted my friend to come down at the front lift to get me!! why? because i'm afraid to be alone inside the lift!! haha...am i such a baby? Maybe... =p It's all because of that weird tale at the office hahaha

and at night, i went to the airport to sent my bro for a flight to K.L. The flight was postpone but that's not what i wanna talk about...
It's about the rain that fall when my dad and i trying to get into our car. It's not really heavy...but we're all wet! My dad have to walk fast so that when i reach the car, i can just go in without waiting him to unlock the car...and i, i just walk like how i use to walk...not fast n not really slow...
There is something about walking in the rain... i just realize that when i reach the car, i'm smilling....but why? i don't even know why i smile...
but i have to wear a cap, so that i won't get a headache...
it's kinda fun walking in the rain... like giving u that dejavu feeling...
(^o^)v